Hello.

I don't use this blog very much anymore, I mean I guess I just haven't really had much to say..
I got a job, finally, I also met someone, and did the worst possible thing I could have done, treated him the same way I was treated, and for that I feel so much remorse and sorrow.
I can't believe I let myself become such a foul human being. As for myself... I feel I have now come out of what was a very dark time in my life, I still feel up and down but I don't experience what I once did.
I'm just bored of this life.. I'm stuck in this little nothing town, I feel trapped. I want to escape so badly, Start a new life somewhere else... Yeah I'll miss people but whoever means something to me won't be far from a thought or a phonecall, even a visit, and I'd hope to think that goes both ways.
I'm planning on going to America, getting away from here for good.
I want to fall in love again, I'm not scared anymore.. I felt so numb for such a long time, but I finally feel ready to give my heart to someone, and I think I'll know when it feels right.