I'm so frustrated! I just wanna be successful.. and the only thing stopping me is myself, I'm my own worst enemy, half of me is striving to push myself to the limits, the other half is terrified and holding me back. I wish I knew how to release that fear, because I realize now the problem is me. I hate myself for it, why can't I go anywhere? why am I even saying I can't, I know I can, I'm just too fucking scared to try.
I need to untangle this mess of thoughts and figure out where I wanna go, and I need to do it fast because time is ticking and I feel the longer I sit here, the longer my brain rots and the deeper I get stuck in this rut.
I wanna believe in myself, but I have no faith, I need to completely reconstruct my thought pattern. At least I know what the problem is now, all I gotta do is figure out what's going to make me happy in life.