Been a while

Since I last posted... Wow, I'm kind of crazy now haha. Things are a million times better, I don't long for you anymore. I found something that seems to make it better.
The weathers been so lovely these last couple of weeks! I've partied so hard, a little too hard some might say, I've pretty much pissed off everyone around me, unintentionally obviously. I feel bad for that but I also feel that Just because you see me smile doesn't mean I'm absolutely fine, pay some attention to detail. I love you all so much and you should know me better than to think I would want to make you all hate me at this time in my life, I don't need you to understand, just to realise why I might be acting out.

Its 4/20 today and I most deffinately am going to take a nice walk and get high now! x

My life for hire

I haven't posted an actual blog in a while, so just for an update... Things are looking up, and down, its confusing really, the last 3 weeks have been the hardest, and I start to feel like its slowly healing, and then all of a sudden it hits me harder, at least I can function now, I guess.

I got my appetite back and its bigger than ever, haha. I'm not sure I know how to feel any more, I decided not thinking and taking each day as it comes was the best way to handle this, but even so I can't block you from my thoughts, In a way I feel like you're invading my privacy, my brain, my space. When you left, you really left, you cut me off, you didn't even care, at all, and you left me in pieces... so why do you deserve to take over my brain and make me feel this way? I'm so angry now.. I feel so betrayed. I don't want to feel this way anymore, but I don't know how to make it disappear.

For some reason I'm still here, and still fighting, I guess this is just what love is, right? because why else would I still be here? Whatever, I'm living, I'm breathing, and I'm moving on.

Just a few things

So for the last few hours I have been admiring clothes I want to buy!

mmm vintage levi's, I already own a pair but they're just not high waisted enough.



I love thiiisss its so awesome, its mens but I don't care :)

Just a few things on my wishlist haha :)