My life for hire

I haven't posted an actual blog in a while, so just for an update... Things are looking up, and down, its confusing really, the last 3 weeks have been the hardest, and I start to feel like its slowly healing, and then all of a sudden it hits me harder, at least I can function now, I guess.

I got my appetite back and its bigger than ever, haha. I'm not sure I know how to feel any more, I decided not thinking and taking each day as it comes was the best way to handle this, but even so I can't block you from my thoughts, In a way I feel like you're invading my privacy, my brain, my space. When you left, you really left, you cut me off, you didn't even care, at all, and you left me in pieces... so why do you deserve to take over my brain and make me feel this way? I'm so angry now.. I feel so betrayed. I don't want to feel this way anymore, but I don't know how to make it disappear.

For some reason I'm still here, and still fighting, I guess this is just what love is, right? because why else would I still be here? Whatever, I'm living, I'm breathing, and I'm moving on.