Evening.

So I was told some really good advice a few days back, it really got me thinking.

'Take control'

Simple, but requires a lot of thought and frustration for someone like me, see I have always been the kind of person who hasn't ever managed to gain control of my life, its almost a weakness of mine, in fact it is a weakness, I meet someone of somewhat importance to me and I let them 'take control' for me, which is a bad habit I have decided its time to break. Until I can gain some control over where I'm headed, and where my life is going to go, I will never be happy. Surprisingly, today I thought so hard into this, I took as much control as I could for one day, went to college, thought about my future and proceeded to make a decision as to what to do for the next few months.
I then walked home, cleaned my house from tip to top, walked my dog, and as little as those things are, I felt an overwhelming sense of satisfaction, I felt happy, happier than I have felt in months.
I am adamant that I'm onto something, there comes a time where you really have to sit and think, 'am I going to sit and let my demons take over me forever?' Or am I going to make a life for myself, because at the end of the day, only I can chose my path, and when I wake up in the morning it should be me I think about, no one else.

I cannot let my past get in the way of my future, there is a reason its in my past, and I am strong enough to pull through, I will never let you dim my shine or put out my spark.