Why are some men such egotistical idiots? It really infuriates me the way some act towards women, get a grip. This society is a joke, everything it stands for is a joke, the way men are bought up believing they are the superior gender, well guess what boys, you're not.

'I don't need to believe in something that wont save my sanity'

I was going to post twice because this is on a completely different subject but I'll just start here. I only wish I was as creative as this man, he explains almost 70% of what I cannot.

So here's to living life miserable
And here's to all the lonely stories that I've told
Maybe drinking wine will validate my sorrow
Every man needs a muse and mine could be the bottle

Maybe then I could sleep at night
I wouldn't lie awake until the morning light
This is something that I'll never control
My nerves will be the death of me, I know

Finally, I could hope for a better day
No longer holding on to all the things that cloud my mind
Maybe then the weight of the world wouldn't seem so heavy
But then again I'll probably always feel this way.

Dallas Green, an absolute lyrical genius, there is nothing he writes that doesn't send me shivers or catch my ear. You'll probably see in my last post I decided I wanted to gain some control over my life, which to a certain extent I guess I have a plan for my future.. but for some reason not one part of me is bothered, why don't I care what happens to me? why don't I care about my future? If only I knew what caused me to feel this way, I wish I could blame someone.. but in reality I don't think I can, its just what happened, and maybe its always been here waiting for that moment where I lost myself, making that gap a little bigger for it to creep through and poison my mind, or what's left of it anyway. I don' even know who I am any more, or what I want. Is this me? or am I someone else, am I always going to feel this way? or is it just a moment passing in the many chapters of my life, there's so many questions I want to ask myself but I just don't have the answers, and I'm terrified I won't ever find them, where are the words to explain this?