I feel strange, I barely remember writing my last post, and after I wrote it I O'd on anti depressants, sleeping pills, and anti psychotics, I don't remember much, I met a friend who says I appeared really drunk, and then my words started to slurr and I lost my balance, so he called an ambulence which I do not remember being in at all. They put wires on me and needles in me, which I kept ripping out and screaming at them that I didn't want anything.
I don't remember anything else, I just remember waking up the next day in a hospital bed, confused as to why or how I got there.
I don't feel like myself at the moment and I don't know what came over me, it's almost like I was possessed by something terrible. Everytime I think of how horrific it was I get shivers, it was like I was in a horror movie or something.. The doctors wanted to section me, but my mum begged them not to, so they let me out. I was so close to killing myself and I don't know how I feel about that,
I don't know what to do with myself, I felt like I could be getting my life back on track but now I feel lost again, back to square 1....