I hate this

This weekend has been so crazy, in an attempt to forget my troubles and have fun I went out on Saturday, it was a really good night, got so messed up though, ended up back at someone's house with a few friends to carry on partying and we didn't even sleep.
Anyway I got home at about 4/5 on Sunday evening, by this time I was sober so all my sane thoughts had arrived back in my head, and right now I'd rather forget.
Today has probably been one of the most eventful in a while, I thought I was doing the right thing, well I know I was, but it doesn't matter what you do and how hard you try because you're never going to stop being tested, and I don't believe in karma, for the simple fact that I've done so much good for this, and all that has come of it is hurt, pain, anger..etc, and even though you hate me, I will never hate you, I will only hate the fact that I love you so much and that's not enough.

Thanks.